Wednesday, October 25, 2006
I should be working on a paper... like always.
I realized today that George Bush has been president throughout all my teen years. From age 12 to what will be 20. Thats weird to think about and to say the least i'm looking forward to a new president. And I recieved a voting ballot! I'm very excited about that... Not so much voting for governors and things but the measures are whats on my mind.
I also realized that I don't seem to be posting as much as i used to.
And is it strange that so far in my eighteen years of life i've done most of my spiritual growing in high school?
That seems wrong to me. It's a transistional period i realize that- but I don't want it to be a transistional period for three years. Preferably only three weeks at the most. I guess i was used to what James and Heather provided for the high schoolers- and i'm just not getting that in the college group.
right about now my boss would tell me to stop whining.
God would probably say the same thing.
I just feel weird coming into the group and having problems with it- when the people who have been there the whole time don't find anything wrong with it.
Again, stop whining Theresa.
I'm not responisble for the other people in my group- i'm responsible for me and my growth. Let them stay the same- while i move on...
But see... that doesn't sound right either- because we're a group then we need to help each other. But what if the other group members don't want help? Or they don't think they need help?
And what about the whole, "remove the huge plank from your eye before you worry about the sliver in someone elses." ...?
And see- that's the thing about going to college and "being an adult" you have to make your own decisions. It's all well and good when you want to eat as much chocolate as you want and go see Team America but what about when it comes to the important stuff? Like dealing with spiritual growth and the growth of your small group.... or when your friend gets pregnant at 17 or when your 18 year old friend gets engaged to a guy she's been dating for six months at the most? or other things?!
I know what you do then but its still a hard lesson to learn... no matter how "old" i am.
God handels it from there. That's what you do.
I also realized that I don't seem to be posting as much as i used to.
And is it strange that so far in my eighteen years of life i've done most of my spiritual growing in high school?
That seems wrong to me. It's a transistional period i realize that- but I don't want it to be a transistional period for three years. Preferably only three weeks at the most. I guess i was used to what James and Heather provided for the high schoolers- and i'm just not getting that in the college group.
right about now my boss would tell me to stop whining.
God would probably say the same thing.
I just feel weird coming into the group and having problems with it- when the people who have been there the whole time don't find anything wrong with it.
Again, stop whining Theresa.
I'm not responisble for the other people in my group- i'm responsible for me and my growth. Let them stay the same- while i move on...
But see... that doesn't sound right either- because we're a group then we need to help each other. But what if the other group members don't want help? Or they don't think they need help?
And what about the whole, "remove the huge plank from your eye before you worry about the sliver in someone elses." ...?
And see- that's the thing about going to college and "being an adult" you have to make your own decisions. It's all well and good when you want to eat as much chocolate as you want and go see Team America but what about when it comes to the important stuff? Like dealing with spiritual growth and the growth of your small group.... or when your friend gets pregnant at 17 or when your 18 year old friend gets engaged to a guy she's been dating for six months at the most? or other things?!
I know what you do then but its still a hard lesson to learn... no matter how "old" i am.
God handels it from there. That's what you do.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
O...S...U...
For three letters, they hold kinda a big importantance.
So I started school last week. I still can't believe it's only been a week and a half. I've gotten a parking ticket, was lost and late to my first class on the first day AND... nervous as heck.
Making friends, you may think, should come easy to me. I'm loud... excitable... energetic... smiley. Not so much when there's not a soul on the campus of ninteen thousand that have no recognizable features to me.
I am thankful, however, for the people who aren't like me and can say 'hey' without needing a response. I can give a response thankfully.
Now with the second week almost finished, i have a paper due on Friday, a test on Tuesday and a portfolio due on monday.
And I'm watching where I park. So I won't get fined $45 for having my bumber in a yellow zone.
Though, i'm quite sure going to school full time (14credits) and working twenty hours a week AND trying to be with my friends is taking a good toll on me... i'm pretty sure its slowly killing me.
We'll see what happens.
I do know that i have survived this far.
So I started school last week. I still can't believe it's only been a week and a half. I've gotten a parking ticket, was lost and late to my first class on the first day AND... nervous as heck.
Making friends, you may think, should come easy to me. I'm loud... excitable... energetic... smiley. Not so much when there's not a soul on the campus of ninteen thousand that have no recognizable features to me.
I am thankful, however, for the people who aren't like me and can say 'hey' without needing a response. I can give a response thankfully.
Now with the second week almost finished, i have a paper due on Friday, a test on Tuesday and a portfolio due on monday.
And I'm watching where I park. So I won't get fined $45 for having my bumber in a yellow zone.
Though, i'm quite sure going to school full time (14credits) and working twenty hours a week AND trying to be with my friends is taking a good toll on me... i'm pretty sure its slowly killing me.
We'll see what happens.
I do know that i have survived this far.
